recently on the turntable

aimee mann
whatever

cost of deb's haircut today

$35

i watched a documentary
on the evolution
of rock n roll, 
today was on the seventies
-
some musical reasons
why the '70's sucked

disco

pink floyd

led zepplin

aerosmith

reo speedwagon

disco

the eagles

the doobie brothers

kiss

supertramp

disco

We've taken to calling Matthew the ah-goo boy. This is the first real vocalisation he's started making - "ah-goo", "ah-goo". We'll "ah-goo" back at him and sometimes he'll break into a smile and gurgle some more.

He knows me. I'll go in to his room in the morning, pad in with bare feet in the half light of dawn and creep over to look down into his cot. He'll be lying flat on his back, arms bent in a "L" shape with his fists clenched beside his head, and his blankets all kicked down the bed. And he'll look up at me, and this big smile will break over his face, and he'll flail his arms and legs about and "ah-goo" at me.

I was talking with someone at work yesterday about babies - he has a six year old daughter. We talked about how it changes your outlook on life instantly the first time you see your baby. He said he's talked about that with friends without children, and they just don't get it. I wouldn't have either before Matthew.

It's been fascinating watching the change in Debbie over the years. From someone, when we first met, who was ambivalent about the idea of having babies at all, to someone who initiated the conscious decision to have Matthew, to someone who was so worried during pregnancy about coping as a mother, and now to someone who loves being a mother and is ambivalent about going back to work. She is a good mother.

We were at my parents today. They're overseas for a months holiday, and then Dad is away for a further two months bringing a new ship back to New Zealand. I want his job!

Anyway, I dug out some old photos of myself. I've got this idea of scanning them in and doing some sort of story using them. And I was looking at them, and, almost, wondering who that young boy was staring back at me. It's going to take some work to unearth myself. To place myself as a 4, 6, 11, 13 year old boy.

My whole life ahead of me.