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23 - Clutter I've felt, today, that my life is too cluttered. I never seem to get things done. I seem to spend inordinate amounts of time doing things that are, at heart, not worth it. I seem to have too many callings on me. And it all contributes to a feeling of "inessentiality" that sums up a lot of what I do. I wonder why I'm feeling like this? I think some of it is that, for me anyway, recovering from an illness is like a new beginning. For nigh on a week I've sweated and sneezed, living in stasis, not feeling like moving forward. And then this morning, expected but still joyous, I've actually got some energy flowing in my body. So I feel an obligation to put it to good use. I want to shear my life back, to regain a feeling of its essentials and to savour them. Think of this mike. Go back to the mantra on your opening page. All that you do. Weigh it up. Look closely at it. Toss it from hand to hand, smell it, bite into it until you feel the juices running out of your mouth. Roll the juices around under your tongue and taste them as they slide slowly down your throat. And decide. Is this something you want to be doing again and again for eternity?
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